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It’s always this way, isn’t it? I couldn’t just stop at the last bottle. My doctor (who never suspected anything) gave me a 6month prescription for Vicodin and now I’m taking them everyday. Not just withy beer but with whatever I can get my hands on. Wine, spirits, cocktails, etc. My skating is suffering; my coach asked me why I’m shaking so much. I just say I’m cold but how long can that excuse go on? I haven’t told anyone about my addictions yet because I want to find people who are supportive and won’t judge me. I need a good people search for addicts. I don’t know how this happened to me; I just gave up one day I guess. Unfortunately I’m not the greatest people finder in this state. Outside help would be appreciated but I can’t ask for it since I never leave my house except to hit the rink. Oh well here’s a woman in just about as much trouble as I am (seriously!): Hilary Clinton facts. I can almost muster a smile and that’s a big deal for me.

So, um, wow. I’m officially a drug addict. No, I’m not pawning off my TV or trying to sell old pairs of shoes on the streets, but I am going into the doctor’s office and saying that I’m in a lot of pain. This will work for now, but what about when they start to wise up? I’ll just have to search people I guess until I find a doc who’ll prescribe them to me. Or I guess I could stop, I dunno, taking them??!! What am I saying? I need to stop this pill kick. As soon as this bottle is empty, I’ll end it forever. I’ll just focus on skating and person search instead. I guess a good way to look for docs would be to do a professional licenses search…think they’d be in there? I hope I never have to find out…